Impulse Control

Okay. In the middle of a lack of impulse control stretch here. Sometimes it feels as though Dawson is a medical experiment when it comes to the meds that are prescribed to him. He was showing a real increase in aggression. So the Dr. prescribed a change, which was so disastrous that after three ruthless days of 1, 2, 3 hour meltdowns, we took him off of the med. Fortunately those intense meltdowns stopped, but we're kinda back to square 1 here. So the aggression is back, and he seems to not be able to control his impulses at all. But you know, we know that we're in good hands- in God's hands. It's nice holding such a strong Hand. -t

God's blessings

God is faithful! Thank goodness He is in charge of our lives.

Terry and I went on a trip a few weeks ago, and standing at the top of the tallest building in the city, we looked down at all the moving dots below us. We reflected that God, from much higher than we were, looks down at all of those 'dots' and knows each one by name. He knows the crosswalk coming up in front of them, even though they can't see it because their path is crowded by other pedestrians. When the time is necessary, He allows them to see the crosswalk and pass. This has been such comfort to us as we await His leading in our lives. We can't see the future clearly, but we know He can and He will not forget about us!

God has blessed us with our need for two new excellent respite workers. Although Dawson will certainly miss the other two very important people in his life, God will give him strength. He also has blessed us to be part of a marvellous school division which is willing to be accommodating to his needs. One example of their excellent care is that the school is allowing him to spend some time in school during the summer, so as to be as consistent as possible in his programming. We have so much to be thankful for!

On the other hand, Dawson is struggling with a major medication change. His hitting has really increased in severity and frequency, likely due to the change. He is getting really strong - take a look at his calves - so this makes any contact with him more intense. The psychiatrist is currently recommending Dawson not spend time with other children due to his frequent hitting. This is hard to take, but we need to be really careful with whom he socializes at this point. Even though we don't like the recommendation, we can see the need for it. It's not fair to the other kids to be whacked unnecessarily.

Nonetheless, God is still in control and He knows what He's doing and He will give us the wisdom to work appropriately with Dawson! He will not give us more than we can handle! So, on we go! -s

Cry out to Jesus

Well, this is about as low as it gets. Every once in a while (3-4x per month), Dawson gets up this early. Not always this early, but today it just seems extra hard to take. 3:00 is a normal time for him to come to our bed every night, but today, as is the case once in a while, I knew by his wiggling, talking and hitting, that he was up for good.
My faith is being stretched, as I contemplate why God allows this to happen. Or why his little body can't comprehend that it needs more rest.
And the thing is, he keeps wanting to go back to bed, but not five minutes late, is up, wanting out of his room. In seemingly entire aloneness. I have no choice, but to trust God's hand- that this is somehow for His glory.
The words that are of strength to me right now at 3:30, 3:45, 3:48- are the words from a Third Day song- but they could just as well come right out of Scripture- "There is hope for the hopeless, rest for the weary and love for the broken heart. There is mercy and par den, grace and forgiveness, to meet you wherever you are. Cry out to Jesus. Cry out to Jesus." That's what I'm doing. -t

How's your summer going?

Hey everyone. Here's a quick shout out to all you friends and family out there. We hope your summer is going well, and that you are finding time to relax.
Dawson is seemingly not complaining about his summer- why should he? He's averaging 3-4 swimming times per week, not to mention the times with the mini pool and sprinkler in the back yard. Oh to be young again!
We're busy contemplating the future, as both workers B and C will be moving on this fall. They have both been a complete blessing to Dawson and us, with their hard work (more on a tribute to them in the near future). We are praying and looking for at least 2 workers. We ask that you pray with us in this matter, as not just anyone can regularly do that type of work.
Otherwise, the summer is moving along as usual- I like the cool rainy days, and Sylvia prefers the heat and sun. We are also on the cusp of a potential move towards ministry for me, and will be able to update that shortly.
Thanks to all for your prayers. We love you all. -t